I've been quiet lately, mostly working on myself. Lots of lessons and challenges coming up, always more to learn and heal. Consciousness is not a given. It has to be sought after, claimed, worked on and re-worked. There is so much we don't see, so much we don't know about ourselves, let alone about the world we live in.
I am still thinking about life and time and death a lot. We should contemplate our own death, not avoid thinking about it. It is inevitable after all, for all of us. Our society likes to shove things under the carpet then we wonder why we are not prepared.
Do you ever feel like time is going too fast or is running out? Do you feel pressured, stressed, frustrated, unhappy, discontent? Life does not often give us what we want or expect. There is a lot of talk about "entitlement" lately, people expecting something for nothing.
That is not going to happen, no matter how much you wish for it. We are co-creators of our lives and we have to do our part, which is a lot, a lot more than we think we need to do, and sometimes it is less than we think, depending on your perspective.
The path I follow is about sacredness, beauty and abundance, but it takes work to get there. It takes humility and complete openness and honesty when confronted with our shadow and shortcomings, imbalances, dysfunctional attitudes and behaviours. It is not fun or easy to look at ourselves honestly and see how we all fall short of the glory of God.
Life is more than striving to be richer, smarter, more successful, more popular, thinner, more beautiful or more handsome.... None of these things are long-lasting, nor do they fulfill our souls desires.
I just know that my soul desire is to be whole, but some parts of me fight against this goal. It takes a lifetime to see these things and most people never do. I am blessed with a strong community and teachers that are guiding me towards wholeness, whether those rebellious parts like it or not. In the end, nothing is guaranteed. Nothing worthwhile comes easily, but the outcome, the consciousness and healing that results from our labours is so worth it!
In the past I had dreams that I had to go through a dark tunnel. I was afraid, but my Guide was there encouraging me, showing me the way. Then just recently, I had a dream where I was at the end of the tunnel, still in the dark but if I was able to take one more step, I would be out of there.
Not to say that my life is finished by any means. I have lots to do before I go. Time is a funny thing, when you waste it, it's gone, and you can't get it back. But when you make good use of it, it is your ally and friend. It allows us to do what we came here to do.
I know it's an old question, but one worth reconsidering, really considering I mean...
What if you knew you only had a few months or a year to live? What would you do? Really! Think about it!