I noticed a lot of traffic on my website recently, I hope you are getting something out of it.
I've been re-reading "Writing Down the Bones" by Nathalie Goldberg. She gives tips that inspire me to write daily, whether it's here or elsewhere. I seem to need to write as much as I need to eat, sleep and breath. If I don't write, I feel something important is missing and I lose touch with myself.
In Shamanism, journaling is essential to daily living. It is a time of insight and introspection. It helps us to empty out, to revisit our day, to reveal our inner reality on the outside and get insights and inspiration. The same could be said for any art form - dancing, drawing, etc...
Today I went for a walk to Britannia Bay Park, just a few blocks away. Winter has arrived a bit early, but it's not too bad, the Ottawa river has not started to freeze over and the geese and ducks are still flying around. They usually stay until the water freezes.
I find if I don't get outside to adapt to the weather changes, my immune system is weakened and I get sick. Fresh air and simple walks are still the best exercise for me at this point in my life. It also helps me clear my head.
On my walk, I saw a 3-legged dog and stopped to talk to the owner. He was a young Asian male. He said it was a rescue dog from Greece. The dog was part Dalmatian and something else and very happily hopping around in the snow. The young man was very attentive to his pet. I was amazed at the story. And it renewed my faith in human nature. We didn't get to talk long because the dog took off with his owner in tow. The connection between humans and animals is essential for our souls.
With the onset of what looks like a long winter ahead, I am trying to find ways to keep active. I look forward to the Grandmother Lodges but they are only once a month. I also am organizing Tarot Meetups and tarot classes. And I still do tarot readings by request. I haven't been doing much of my Shamanic practice lately. It takes a lot of energy and I am not well known in Ottawa and am not up to putting myself out there like I used to do in my younger years.
My main focus right now is the Dream class with Lisa F. Tardiff, my Teacher. Indigenous Traditional Dreaming is so misunderstood, it takes a long time to really appreciate how important it is to our daily survival. And how we dream all the time. But the fact is that this knowledge is being lost. The modern world is more interested in superficialities and technology. But I am grateful for the path I am on, as well as the teachers and community that are like family to me.
Life is good. Counting my blessings daily helps me see how much abundance I truly have. I don't need more possessions, I need to breath deeply and see the beauty in and all around me. I need to enjoy the simple things of life. Slow down.
Winter Solstice is coming up in December and I will be back around then to talk about making wishes, if not sooner to ramble on about some other topics that peak my interest.
Be well everyone and count your blessings! My son and his fiancé are in Southern California and the smoke from the forest fires is reaching them. So many deaths, people, animals and trees. It is tragic. My prayers go out to those who are suffering hard times.
Today I got the long-awaited results from a biopsy. It was negative as I knew it would be, but others were worried for me. I tend not to worry about things until they happen, then I look for solutions. I don't see the purpose in stressing myself out over something that I have no control over. I will deal with Life as it is handed to me as best I can.
I also believe in Destiny. I knew I was destined to have only one child for example and I did. I knew I was destined to be part of a larger Shamanic Community and I am. I know I am not destined to die of cancer even though it runs in my family. I don't go out of my way to test fate, but I also don't run from it.
Think of how many things could go wrong in your life that don't. Think of how many times you were nearly hit by a car, or hurt in some way. When the tornadoes hit Ottawa and region on Friday, September 21st, it was during rush hour. Yet no one was killed. I was on my way to a movie at Bytowne cinema, after visiting a women in Ottawa East. We were heading north/west. The wind picked up and I knew there would be a bad storm, and thought maybe I should head home. But something told me to follow through on our plans to see the movie.
When we came out, I had no idea what we missed. It was only when I saw that the traffic lights were out and when we got home to no electricity that we figured it was a bad storm. We soon discovered what had happened.
IF we had headed home instead of going to the movie, we would have driven right into the path of the tornado on Merivale Road where the Transformer was hit. I know that my Inner Guidance directed me to go to where we would be safe. The worst I lived that day was coming out of the movie about "Gaugin" pissed off at another male chauvinist artist who left his wife and children and took on mistresses to satisfy his own needs, using them as muses, making them pose for hours in tortuous position. Okay, I know the women also had a say in it, but in those days the cultural and social programs around gender were strongly ingrained for both men and women.
But I digress... All this to say that if we listen to our Guidance, trust in our decisions, have the right intentions... we will be where we need to be, whether it is in the midst of the storm or on the sidelines, safe in a warm theatre or far away on a deserted island. We are all here to grow strong, to become the best we can be, to heal our old stories, find new solutions to our repetitive dysfunctional behaviours and become more conscious. Otherwise we are just existing, taking up space.
This month is about healing our relationships, be honest with ourselves and being tested. What is testing you? How are you dealing with it?
What are you willing to give up in order to move forward, connect, be open to new perspectives and inter-relate?
Do you believe in Spirit Guides? Do you listen to them? Do you know them?
If you like what you read in my blogs and want to learn more about Spirit Guides, healing, walking towards wholeness, the Medicine Wheel and more... see CIRCLES page for next Grandmother Lodge, and contact me to register.
These teachings are for all who feel the call.
On Saturday, I attended an event called Reconciliation: Re-Membering Creator's First Sacred Pipe".
it was a panel discussion by some well known Algonquin Leaders from this Territory, as well as a few white men with interest in what is happening to Chaudiere Falls, which is a Sacred Site for the Native people. Once upon a time, if seen from above, it was in the shape of a peace pipe. That has been altered by the construction of a dam unfortunately.
This area was once a place of peace where Tribes from all over came to trade, leaving their weapons behind. Even enemy tribes. The falls also contained the 4 sacred elements needed to make a pipe... stone, water, fire and air. And it is located at the centre where four rivers meet, making a Medicine Wheel.
It is a great honour to be on this sacred land but also incredibly tragic that the Sacredness is not acknowledged by the government. Sadly, even some other Algonquin tribes prefer to cash in on selling the land to developers. They say that they will create a park where people can go to pray. Not all Native people understand how it works with Sacred Sites. Once you develop it, the land loses its power. I have seen this happen over and over again in my travels.
The Falls have already been desecrated. They are not as glorious as they once were, having been cut down and damned up.
Many of you who have lived in the Ottawa region longer than me probably know all this. But I am still just learning about the issues involved. It is a complicated situation and the government is very good at ignoring the Indigenous peoples in spite of the nice words around reconciliation.
The closing of Victoria Island which is a meeting place for peaceful Indigenous protests and sacred ceremonies is also another ploy to shut us down. The Trudeau Government has lost our trust, lied to us and there is little hope that this sacred land will be preserved.
It is heartbreaking yet this is nothing new. Indigenous ways will never be understood as along as greed precedes the desire to preserve the environment. I honour the Warriors who fight for these causes, but there is a huge miscommunication gap between Native people and the Canadian government officials. Native people are "too nice", as Lynn Gehl, one of the Elders stated vehemently at the Panel discussion on Saturday. Being nice never got us anywhere. We were nice when we allowed the Europeans to step foot on Turtle Island. We fed them and taught them how to survive. And they killed us.
From my perspective, it's too late to save the planet. We just have to prepare for the worst. Mother Earth is due for a cleanse and we just happen to have over 7 billion people on her back at this time. Humans are responsible for the pollution and overpopulation, but the Earth changes come in natural cycles. We are just accelerating it by destroying the ozone.
We all know this. I am just reminding us that we need to be ready. How do we do that, you ask?
We need to prepare fro the changes the same way we prepare for death, Live our lives the best we can, with integrity, honour, truth, love and courage.
Make every day count, help one another and follow your destiny, your path, be where you are meant to be, go where you are called. Not everyone is meant to be on the front lines. It is good to know where you belong, whether it is doing your best at work, at home or in the community. Be prepared for crises situations like storms, floods and power outages. Keep in touch with your loved ones.
If we can remember who we truly are, Souls on a sacred journey towards wholeness, and act accordingly, we cannot go wrong. We are born and we die, that is how things work.
You may think me morbid or depressive, but I am neither. Death is part of the sacred cycle of Life and it happens to us all, one way or another. The Earth Changes are a fact and have been prophesied by Indigenous Prophets for centuries. We need not be afraid to discuss these important issues.
*Chaudiere Falls, past and present below*
I woke up this morning with the thought, "I don't want to do this anymore, I don't want to be here".
"Where did that come from?" I wondered. I know I've been tired lately and wishing for a vacation from mundane daily chores. In the past I wanted to leave this planet a few times, but this thought this morning came out of nowhere. After being fully immersed in my Dream Classes with my Teacher and community, I have found a new focus on life, a new vitality and new direction. I have a reason to get up in the morning. So this thought was not expected.
I wondered if I was picking up on Cosmology. We are entering the Dark time of the year and according to our Teachings, we are in the southwest of the Medicine Wheel, heading towards the WEST which is about Surrender and Death. We have to die to our Ego in order to be open to the unknown, to Spirit and the Dreaming.
This month, starting on Wednesday, October 24th, we are in the Moon of Inter-Relations for one month. This Moon is about making room for others in our lives, connecting, reaching out, listening and learning about others' perspectives, letting go of our own beliefs, opinions and judgments. It is a death of our attitudes and behaviours, if only for a brief moment. In doing so, we are opening to something outside ourselves, often something bigger than us.
Inter-relations is not just about people. It can be about our relationship with God/Goddess/Creator, with animals, trees, flowers, even with objects such as our cars, clothes, home, a favourite mug or chair.... It is about seeing something from a different point of view. How does that which is not us view their reality? How does it or they view you? There is a spirit in all things and we can access that reality if we try hard enough.
At our Grandmother Lodge last Sunday, I found myself expressing how the Indigenous perspective is lacking in our Modern world, but how we managed to preserve the wisdom of our sacred ways and are still here, if only in small numbers. Now the Earth and all life on her is suffering because of the missing link on the Wheel of Life. The Red Race are the Keepers of the Earth. We know how to live in harmony and balance with Nature and Spirit. But few are interested anymore.
We are not ones to impose our beliefs on others, but we do ask respect for our ways when you enter our territory. When I do Circles, I invite you into my world and generously share the wisdom and teachings that have been passed on to me from my Teachers, Spirit and the Ancestors.
One of the things I believe in is the right to die with dignity when my time comes. Our Ancestors and Traditionalists today do not fear death. It is seen as a natural part of the circle of Life. I don't want anyone trying to revive me when I am going. So the thought I woke up with this morning was telling me that I need to prepare for the inevitable. I have been procrastinating about writing my Personal Directive and my Will, settling my affairs, being ready.... But it is time to take action.
This fact was confirmed this afternoon when I got a phone call from "Dying with Dignity Canada". They are looking for donations but also volunteers. I agreed to join. I think I have a lot to say on this topic and I want to see this law being honoured. Assisted Suicide is now legal in Canada but there is a long way to go before it is easily accepted and implemented by hospitals and doctors at the right time for the right people.
The upcoming Moon in November is the Moon of Surrender. It takes us deeper into the Southwest of the Wheel, where we find the Nomad. It is about change and asks us to let go of what we know in order to enter the unknown. Death is a slow process and begins the moment we are born. We die a little every day. Whether we want to deny, ignore or resist this fact is a personal choice.
Right now at this time of year as the hours of darkness increase and the veil between worlds thins, death is a theme. With Halloween coming up, TV and movies like to focus on fear, terror and torturous methods of dying. But as someone who faced death in my 30's, I can honestly say that dying can be painful enough without making it into a horror show. Some of the medical treatments to keep us alive can be worse than death itself.
Death is not something to fear or to avoid, as if we could... but we need to talk more about it, we need to prepare ourselves for the end, and it is not just about being old. Death can come to anyone, any time.
Are you ready?
How would you like to die?
Would you like to have assisted suicide if you have a terminal disease?
What is it that you fear about death? Are you afraid of suffering? Do you fear the unknown?
What are your beliefs about the afterlife. These are all good questions to ask ourselves.
I have a private group on Facebook called "We're Not Dead Yet". Although it is only for people age 50+. We talk about issues of aging, illness, health, death and dying, the afterlife and more... and often with humour.
If you are interesting in joining, you can message me on FB.
To learn more about assisted suicide and Canadian laws, click the link below:
So, I inadvertently joined LinkedIn the other day, not to become one of the many professionals out there but to see how my son and others navigate in the world. It appeared that in order to read what others are doing, I had to set up a profile. Maybe I was wrong, but I ended up doing it anyway.
I felt like I walked into a HUGE convention centre with thousands of vendors selling their products and services. I immediately felt out of place. But I managed to find a few people I know. Is this how we communicate in the world today. Is it all going to be online in the future? Is it already? How many of these people we connect with do we actually meet in person?
I knew I did not belong in there, I had nothing to sell or promote and basically said as much. Again the theme of extinction is revealed. I am a dinosaur in the modern world, side-stepping all the traffic and noise, going the opposite way of the mainstream, finding my way against the raging current.
Are we really making connections or is everyone just trying to sell you something? Do we really listen to each other? Are we going so fast, so busy that we don't really see each other?
I am so glad to be at the age where I do not have to navigate the online jungle of virtual reality in order to survive. Yet some like it and do very well in that world.
For myself, I am going deeper and deeper into the dreaming, letting go more and more of the Western world in hopes of integrating my Inner Community, working with a Master Dreamer and my own Dreamer who is guiding my every step. These are my guides, my role models, the company that I keep. And we are not being pulled along on the raging white water rapids of the Western world. We go against the current, we follow the Ancestors and we invite those who feel called to join us.
We may be selective and we don't try to convert, sell or convince anyone of anything. We just do things our way. Many try it out for a while but they don't make the initiations that naturally occur. The ones that do stay with us are rare gems to us, our kind of people. Not to say that I don't enjoy reaching out and making outside connections, we are not exclusive in that way. We are a widespread community and we do also use the world wide web to make our initial contacts. Most of our Community have to live in the virtual world of technology and live in this modern faced paces world. I am just not one of them. Somehow, thank goodness, my Soul managed to let me be born before internet became a way of life. Anyway at my age, I am more focused on the end of life than anything. So keep that in mind when you read my perspective of the world today.
Nevertheless, we all do what we need to do in order survive and thrive. Each one of us has their own place, path and purpose. We each have our own higher guidance. Whether we listen to it or not is a whole other topic.
As for me, I am happy to share the ancient wisdom with the many who can use it for their own conscious awareness and growth, planting seeds of Shamanism that were passed down through countless generations. I may be old school, but true wisdom is eternal in nature, it works in any time period, any geographical location and any race, religion or culture. The old values still apply.
What I teach is not focused on how to be rich, live long and prosper, but how to be whole, balanced, strong, conscious, wise, loving, confident and how to walk with integrity and honour. Richness and prosperity does come in many forms as a side-effect when we come into our power. I am living proof of that. I never had to navigate the modern Western world, I never worked in the mainstream society, yet I have always been well cared for on all levels. I am lucky that way.
The teachings that I share are so profound and different that it takes time to embody them, you have to live them. You can't just get the mental knowledge and think you know it all. The mind can be rigid, limited and unused to new/old ways of perceiving reality. Traditional Shamanic ways are rare and hard to find today. The New Age Shamanism barely touches the surface. But it has its place too.
So, I am still around and kicking, still working, still sharing, still learning and growing. I feel so incredibly grateful for the path I am on. The basics that I do share are extremely useful to those who come to the Circles. I see the changes in them and their lives and they keep coming back, even when initiated, as they inevitably are.
These are the people I am linked into and continue linking into.
(P.S. I can't seem to help myself, when Spirit calls, I have to write, so stay tuned for more blogs).
We are a vanishing breed, those of us who follow Traditional Indigenous Ways. The modern world moves too fast, is too superficial, too busy, too crowded, too demanding... There is no place for us old timers who live according to Natural and Cosmological Laws. We do not speak the same language as the general population, nor do we follow the same path. We are preparing to leave the planet. Extinction means there is no coming back.
Mother Earth is in a stage of purification and she is ridding herself of humans along with many other species of creatures.
Humans are not disappearing like the dinosaurs did, but we are mutating, into what we don't yet know. But the values, traditions, lifestyles of our Ancestors are no longer valid or even relevant in these modern times. No wonder the young people do not respect or listen to Elders anymore.
What can we give them that will help them survive in a world of technology?
We can teach them morals, values, respect, discipline, patience, kindness, work-ethics.... but they seem determined to do things their own way and stumble along without any guidance or advice from the Elders. I am speaking of the majority here, not everyone. I feel bad for the generations to come. The world and life is getting more difficult and nature is changing, along with human nature. Everyone wants to lead but no one wants to follow. Everyone wants to be heard but no one wants to listen.
Extinction of the old ways is inevitable. Everything must change eventually. I am just grateful that I was born in a time when the air. land and water was still pure and we didn't have the worries of today like overpopulation, food that does not carry the nutrients it is supposed to have, people not knowing how to inter-relate because they spend all their time alone on computer, tablets or cell phones, people not wanting to go outside because the mosquitoes carry diseases, or because it's too hot or too cold or too wet.... We are attached to indoor controlled climates and the outdoors feel foreign. Anyway it is all littered and trampled under, destroyed and dying a slow lingering death. Depressing isn't it? But there is always something to appreciate and cherish in life.
I am in my final chapter and I am conserving my energy these days for what is important to me. I no longer need to be sociable, to go to all the events that are out there or to participate in causes. I am winding down.
The dinosaurs went extinct not just because of comets, but because of the rising land masses that allowed them to migrate across continents and infiltrate other territories, bringing their foreign bacteria to those who had no immunity to them. Or the overpopulation in one area causing battles to the death, territorial issues and loss of food supplies. Extinction does not happen overnight, but I am ready to face whatever comes and I hope that others are too. We need to be strong, aware, cautious but knowing whom to trust, to develop survival skills without losing our integrity and honour.
I feel like I am losing so much already; my youth, my vitality, my memory, my health... yet I remember and retain what I need to get me where I need to go. I have lived a full and adventurous life and it's not over yet by any means, but I am no longer exerting energy in external pursuits and I can no longer give unconditionally to those who do not give back or who dont value what I have to offer.
I do one Grandmother Lodge a month and only if there is enough interest and someone else organizes them. I don't have the energy to go out and make new contacts like I did in the past. I am truly a Grandmother now, even if I don't have grandchildren.
There is melancholy in looking back at this phase of my life, but also wisdom and gratitude for all that I have lived, where I am now and where I am going, and whom I am going there with. IF we listen to our guidance, life takes us where we need to be to learn, heal and grow into our power, even if the journey is not what we want or expect. It gets us to where we need to go in the end.
I wish you all the very best in all that you do. I pray we all find our way home, that we walk in balance upon Mother Earth in this time of imbalance, uncertainly and chaos. Roll with the changes, let go of the hurts and wounds, find your power, voice and community without blaming or harming others for your pain.
Be where you are supposed to be and Spirit will take care of you and guide your every step, whether you believe in Spirit or not. Know now that you are not alone, you are being watched over by a higher power.
Today is the New Moon for this month. It brings in the Wind of the Shaman. This Wind is rare and may come only every 3 or more years.
I struggle with the Shaman Wind that is coming in. It holds all 8 Winds and can be confusing, overwhelming and complicated. It is important to be focused, so I am clearing my work space, my arts and crafts table and sorting through and throwing out old journals and excess of any kind. I noticed that I have bought a lot of new clothes this summer as I had to adapt to the hot and humid conditions here in Ontario. My old wardrobe from Alberta doesn't work here and it is time to give some of them away. Blue Jeans are way too hot in this humidity, as are synthetic materials of any kind. We are becoming a tropical climate.
But now the heat wave has ended and again we must adapt and change, put on warmer clothes and more blankets at night. I notice that as I get older, change is more difficult. Even writing has become an issue, with my eyes getting worse and the arthritis in my hands limiting my time on computer. The abrupt changes in temperature don't help any.
It is good to appreciate your youth and to prepare for old age. We don't think about it until it happens to us. It is a time for life review and reflection, if I can just stop being so busy.
The body ages as the soul expands. Looking back at my life, I see how amazing my journey has been, how blessed I have been with love, growth, healing and adventures that some people envy. Iu certainly did not lead a conventional life.
It is time for me to bring it all together in one neat package. In order to do that, I need to reduce my excess activity, conserve my energy and make the most of the time I have left, to stay focused on what is important.
This Wind in particular will challenge all of us to stay focused... because it combines all 8 winds in one. It can feel overwhelming and confusing if we are not clear on what we are doing and where we are going. It is hard enough for us Butterfly Clan people to stick to one flower at a time, now we must double our efforts to be aware and not scattered by the Winds, literally!
Everyone will feel the effects of this Wind this month, I pray the you find your way through the turbulence, stay on your path and find what works for your Soul's journey.
If you are wondering what we do in the Medicine Wheel Circles, here is a brief summary or at least a basic foundation...
We lay down a Medicine wheel of 36 stones and may light candles, depending on many different factors. We sometimes do a smudging ceremony over the wheel and ourselves, with sacred herbs. We drum to call in the Spirits, connect to the heartbeat of Mother Earth and to harmonize our heartbeats.
I give some teachings about the Wheel related to the Natural and Cosmological Influences (Winds and Moons) that we are under. I may pass a talking stick. People share what they are living and ask questions. I often respond by connecting their stories to the Traditional Teachings and the stones on the Wheel.
We may offer different perspectives on a story shared if the person wants input or feedback. Each Wheel is different. Besides the Natural and Cosmological Forces, it also depends on the location, the land and the people at the circle. All of these combine to add a unique flavour and texture to the each Wheel. We may do art, crafts, rituals, dreaming, drumming, power hunts or anything else that I am called to do.
Grandmother Lodges are around the Full Moon. We learn about the 13 Moons/Grandmothers, explore our 13 Inner Children, and emotional issues for healing, growth and learning. The Lodges follow the Feminine, but are open to both men and women.
Medicine Wheel Circles near to the New Moon are for Traditional teachings, self-exploration, growth, learning and connecting to the 8 Winds / Roles on the Medicine Wheel. This is the Masculine part of the Wheel and looks at life's challenges. This is also for both men and women.
An average Circle is about 8-12 people.
Day-long or weekend Workshops can hold up to 30.
Teaching conferences are unlimited in number, depending....
The exchange for a circle is $20-$30. First-timers can give a donation of their own choosing.
I prefer a weeks notice for registration so I can properly prepare.
Registration is by email.
If you have a drum or rattle, please bring it. If not, I do have some that you can use.
We each bring a small snack to share with the group.
The circles are usually 3-4 hours long with a snack break in the middle or at the end.
Weather and location permitting in summer, I prefer to do circles outside. That way we can connect to Nature and it is more magical. The Wheel will attract natural phenomena.
Sometimes pets are allowed at Circles but I must be informed beforehand.
And if you have food or pet allergies, please let me know.
There is lots more of course. It is not something I can explain in detail as it is more about being in the experience, not a mental thing. You will explore yourself from a Traditional Shamanic Perspective, discover your Spirit Clan and Roles or Totems - your Medicine. You may be encouraged or initiated to grow beyond your perceived limitations, to think outside the box you are in or let go of illusions.
This is not a Western self-help support group. I am a Teacher of a Traditional Medicine Wheel, not a therapist or counsellor. We are not "politically correct" by any means. If you are looking for a different perspective, a different way of doing things, this is for you.
If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to contact me.
Change, conflict, uncertainty, death, chaos, rebirth... all aspects of life that are never easy to accept and endure, but must be embraced. We no longer can follow the path the Ancestors laid before us, because it path is now paved over and trampled down by modern vehicles and the feet of many who no longer follow the old ways.
Yet some of the Traditions endure, they may change according to the times, but many of the old ways are gone forever. What remains is a thread of the legacy our Ancestors left behind. The Medicine Wheel Wisdom is literally carved in stone, but even stones wear down and are transformed into sand, gravel or glass and integrated into the fabric of life.
The Teachings are to be shared, to be left for those who wish to walk into the 6th World with eyes wide open, hopefully. As I struggle to adapt to the Modern World and all its challenges, and prepare to write my final chapter, I find myself resisting the change, clinging onto the old ways that worked for our Ancestors and for me these past few decades. But change is accelerating faster than anyone imagined.
Mother is going through a major purification right now and it will intensify. Holding a sacred space in a world that is in chaos is not easy. I pray for the trees, animals, our friends and family out West who are struggling with forest fires and our neighbours to the South who are wading through flooded streets.
In the midst of all these changes, I too must change and adapt to new ways of doing things. Survival is necessary in all that we do and giving up is not an option. But I did have to do a reset, go into my cocoon and reform once again.
Although it is no longer feasible to maintain a small group in Ottawa, I am being called to go out into the community at large once again and will be sharing the wisdom and traditions in other ways, at local Community Centres and Schools.
We are coming into the 5th Moon on August 26th. I will continue hosting the Grandmother Lodges once a month until spring when we complete the 12th Moon, if there is enough interest.
After that, we will see. There is no use trying to any see farther ahead, because each day is precarious, changing and unpredictable. For now, it is enough to wake up and know that I am still living and breathing.
Life and the Wheel are not always smooth. Things move in spurts, stops and starts, and sometimes sudden changes pop up out of nowhere. There can be pleasant or unpleasant surprises. We need to be open and surrender to the unknown, the unexpected. That is the way of the Dreaming.
Those of you who want to join us in learning about the Medicine Wheel and Dreaming, you can contact me on facebook. Or email me as I will not be writing in here as much or doing Circles in the same predictable manner. I must follow there the Dreaming takes me
I have closed down the comment section of this Blog because of lack of participation. Writing in isolation is not a circular activity, it is linear. As I mentioned before, when people read and do not reply, they are taking and not giving back. In our Traditions, it is crucial to give and receive in balance. Otherwise those who give will become drained. And those who take will become excessively full.
We all need to step out of our little boxes, our comfort zones and move ever onward towards our destiny. It takes courage, integrity and determination.
I wish you all the best on your journeys. Hopefully I will see you on Facebook. Look for me under my name.
How much of who we are in influenced by outside forces. This may sound like the old "Nature or Nurture" debate, but was that questioned ever answered?
From a Shamanic perspective, we are not born as blank slates and we are not self-made individuals either. We come into the world with baggage and gifts from past lives. But we are also a product of our environment, some more than others. Some are more hypersensitive than others to the Natural and Cosmological forces that guide and influence our thoughts and behaviours. But in the end, we are all affected.
We all know how the Moon affects us, but do we know that we are also affected by the Winds?
The Winds are natural forces that change monthly on the New Moon. By being aware of them, how they work and how they affect us, we can make some conscious choices and learn something about ourselves and our relations to natural influences.
In Medicine Wheel circles, we explore the Wind at large and observe it manifest in and around us throughout the month. It brings us newfound knowledge each time. Although there are only 8 Winds, when combined with different Moons as well as planetary and collective influences, we begin to realize our inter-relatedness to all life everywhere. And how complex we are, how multi-faceted life is and how we are just a small speck in the grand spectrum of things.
It helps us to not take things personally. We are part of a collective reality, where individuality is played out through our personal Wheels. Knowing we are just one "cog" in a Bigger Wheel, helps us see what the theme of the month is all about. And where we belong in the Circle of Life. IT shows us our gifts and lessons.
We make mistakes, we fall on our face, we pick ourselves up, we heal and learn and we go forward to new lessons and healing. Life is constantly evolving, so why stay stuck in yesterday's unresolved.
Mother Earth needs us to heal and learn, to stop dumping our unresolved in her body, like the garbage that piles up in the landfills and is overflowing into the waterways and oceans. Humans are walking around with lifetimes of unresolved (excess baggage) inside of them. It weights heavy on us all. Our imbalances create imbalances in Nature. And today there are too many humans on the planet without awareness of how their imbalances have an effect on Nature. This is a big problem.
Do not underestimate the power of your own healing journey. Do not waste time holding onto old hurts, resentment, anger, pain, fear... life is too short and each day can take us closer to fulfilling our life path and purpose, to finding peace, wisdom and resolution to your stories.
WINDS are about CHALLENGES. Each Wind will bring another challenge, another lesson, another opportunity to grow, learn, heal....
The 8 Winds, (ASA Roles) are...
Which ones do you relate to most?
Which ones affect you the most?
Which ones challenge you the most?
Which Wind do you think we are in this month?
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I don't have much time for those who do not believe in Spirit, the afterlife & reincarnation. The gap is too wide to fill. I own rather spend time with people who have already figured it out.
It is unfortunate that some religions and other social practices have thrown out this concept. It is a stretch for some to believe and it is a stretch for me to bridge the gap between those like me who have experienced Spirit and remember past lives.
I cannot imagine believing otherwise. Yet, I never went looking to see Spirit or for memories of past lives, it just came to me. I was lucky that way. I saw my Spirit Guide when I was 16 years old, and many times since then. I did not think about the afterlife until I faced death in the eye at age 32. I did not think about reincarnation until I came on path and started remembering, dreaming about my past lives.
I can see why people don't want to remember the past, the history of humanity is written in blood. Our past lives were horrible, many of them were anyway. I do also remember some good ones. But not believing just perpetuates the endless cycles of repetition of old dysfunctional patterns. Imagine knowing that the issues you have today, you have had for many lifetimes! Would that inspire you to change something? If you believe you have only one shot at life, that to me would be devastating and incomprehensible. Life is too vast and varied to only have one life in one body. I have experienced so many different realities in different lifetimes.
Seeing Spirit can be scary at first. Especially if there are scary Spirits around you. But not seeing them is just as harmful if not worse. I always thought that what you can't see has more power over you than what you can see. At least you know what is influencing or affecting you in some way and can have a say in what to do about it. Seeing my Spirit guide brought me lots of joy and comfort. Knowing that someone was there for me, protecting and guiding me was humbling. I have done house blessings with ghost (unresolved people who are stuck in the in-between) and some were scary and dangerous. I have seen my Mother cast out demons in her Christian prayer circles and I have cleansed demons out of place myself in a Shamanic way.
As for the afterlife, I have seen that too. I saw where my Mother was going as I sat by her deathbed. And I saw her for many years after that. She appeared in my dreams, staying in touch, letting me know how she was doing and even when and where she reincarnated! Even my cat kept in touch after she died, but then she was more than a cat, she was a familiar.
I am truly blessed to have such experiences, dreams and visions. Yet, it is my faith that brings them to me. It is that old oxymoron that "You must believe in order to see", which is actually true. But even when I don't see or I forget or stop believing for a moment, part of me knows that all is in its rightful place, that I am being guided, loved and protected in spite of my ignorance or lack of faith.
Such is the nature of the Universe.
I am glad that so many people are reading my blogs, but I wonder what you are getting out of them. What do you do with the information?
My aim is to teach, inspire, inform and share my own unique perspectives on life.
I've been contemplating the power of words lately.
I have lived an unusual life and am writing my memories, but it is weird to put myself out there and not know who is reading and not getting feedback. That is not the way of our ancestors, it is not a circular experience. I am used to being in circles where everyone shares their perspective and we all learn from each other. There is usually a leader and teacher but they listen to what others have to say and take it seriously.
In this modern world where the written word is paramount and widespread, do we consider the impact of our words and how they are interpreted? When reading a text you can't see the facial expressions, hear the tones in the voice or observe the body language. So much of what we read is left up to our personal interpretation.
That is one reason why I am reluctant to publish my memories and the Medicine Wheel Teachings. What I share is sacred and personal as well as Ancient. The teachings come from the Ancestors, from Spirit, the Dreaming. The language we use is different. For my book, I realize that I will have to define the terms that we use, such as Shaman, Circular ways, sacredness... to avoid misinterpretations.
Still, the written word is limited and rigid one put down on paper or computer, whereas the ancient teachings are fluid, flexible and adaptable to different circumstances. What is true in one situation is not true in another. It depends on many other factors. That is why Indigenous Peoples valued the spoken word over the written. They saw no need for a written language. Their word was honourable. they meant what they said and thought carefully before speaking
Today people tweet, text and write anything. We no longer trust each others words because we don't know if they are honest or not. "False information" has become a common term. People no longer trust the spoken word, we need contracts, forms and written proof. Still... words are misused, abused and over-used.
In the bible, the beginning of Creation is about "THE WORD"... The word is God**... How much of our words today contain truth, power, presence and sacredness?
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.
The old Lakota was wise. He knew that Man's heart away from Nature becomes hard. (Standing Bear)
This Heat wave is intense, I hope you all are taking care of yourselves. I never experienced such heat before. I got heat stroke last week, it was mild but a first for me. It made me more aware of how our bodies have to deal with the changes in weather, and as we get older, the body doesn't adapt as easily as it used to do.
I heard on the news that this extreme weather is going to continue and may even get worse. There is no rain in sight. When it does rain, it will be brief and intense. This is just the beginning of the effects of climate change. It is not going to be fun. We are fortunate to have fans, air conditioning and modern technology to keep us cool. Ironically it is technology that helped contribute to this situation in the first place, although it is also part of a natural cycle.
Change is the only constant, and we must adapt. I often wonder what it would be like if the first Europeans came to Turtle Island to learn and integrate into the culture instead of conquering. I am reminded of the Star Trek series in which "the Prime Directive is a guiding principle of the United Federation of Planets prohibiting the protagonists from interfering with the internal development of alien civilizations."
If the White man had come to this continent to adapt, not to interfere, we would not be hurting Mother Earth, we would have found earth friendly ways to live by following the Indigenous Peoples of this land. Every time I do something that goes against nature or hurts Mother, I say a prayer, "Please help us find a better way to live in harmony with all life everywhere". I also try to offer tobacco to the earth when in gratitude for something I lived or received. By giving back, I am connecting with her and making a Circle.
Circular thinking is all about connecting to all life around us, seeing the bigger picture, accepting other perspectives, being aware of how we affect others and looking at the long term consequences.
We need the Indigenous wisdom to help us survive, whether it is about how to live in sacredness and balance with all creation, or maybe in the future we might need to know how to live off the land again, but this time it won't be so abundant, it will and is depleted, barren, abused and used up. No wonder all the movies about the future look so grim. I would love to see a futuristic movie that presents a positive, healthy world. I find it discouraging and wonder how much these images that create the worst case scenario are a self-fulfilling prophecy. And what are the psychological effects on us all?
If we would all visualize a good outcome and take realistic steps towards it, we could avoid the worst. Unfortunately, it is the ones in power that need to take the big steps. But we can make a difference as individuals. Signing petitions for protecting the environment and animals is a good way to go. Find small ways for your soul to express its concern and love for Mother Earth. In the end, its you that will benefit, no matter how things go.
I love connecting with nature, feeling the spirit in the wind, the songs of the birds, the swaying of the trees.... We are so blessed here in Ottawas to have so much nature around us.
I hope you all get out and connect with the Spirits of the land and enjoy the summer. Be safe and protect yourself from the extreme heat.
Things could be worse, we could be trapped in a cave in Thailand with the monsoon rains coming in, like those young soccer boys and their teacher. I lit a candle, am praying for a good outcome. It puts my life in perspective and reminds me how blessed I am in so many ways.
I've been writing a lot lately, There is a lot to write about. I am back working on my book, but at a slower pace and for me. It may or may not get published.
Lately I have been exploring what it means to be a Dreamer, to Dream awake and asleep. I am paying more attention to my night dreams, keeping a dream journal and asking questions about my dreams. I am beginning to understand them better and see how they are showing me where I am at in my journey towards wholeness. It is encouraging, but I feel that there is so much more to learn and explore.
When I was a child, I was in the dreaming all the time, now with time, social conditioning and too much mental learning, I lost that connection. Now I have to find other ways to follow my Dreamer, a feeling of being so far from what I know dreaming can be.
What does it mean to dream, to be a Dreamer. To me, it means to listen to Spirit, to see and hear the signs and synchronicities all around me, to see Spirit in all things, knowing there is someone guiding me Home. It is about trusting my Dreamer, trusting myself and being open to the unknown, surrendering to what the universe brings me.
The Medicine Wheel is a tool for dreaming. The dream images show me where I am on the Wheel and what I am working on. The wheel shows me where I need to go and how to get there. It is really amazing to see how it works. It takes time to learn these things, but each step is a new discovery.
The more attention I give to my dreams, the more I ask to be guided, the more I trust and surrender, the quicker and easier my journey will be.
Everyone dreams differently, there are many different levels of dreaming. The thing is to discover your own special style. Spirit talks to us through our dreams.
If you are a Dreamer, let me know. We are a community of Dreamers.
Dream Well my Friends!
HAPPY FULL MOON!
Slowing down isn't easy for me. I am used to being busy. My Horse Totem tends to be a care-giver, carrying others in need. I cared for my aging and dying parents, and now for my partner. But now my body is aging, my metabolism and everything else is slowing down. Yet the world around me is speeding up.
On Friday evening, at the onset of the Canada Day weekend, the Full Moon of Drama came in with a different feel to it. Usually the Moon of Drama is dramatic! But this time, it was low-key. I also noticed that it looked smaller then the Super Moons we had recently. It seemed further away and it is.
The planet Saturn opposing the Moon probably has something to do with the repressed expressiveness of this Moon.
But the city went quiet all of a sudden too. It was the last day of school and we live right next to an elementary school yard so no more sounds of children playing.
I assume that many people have left the city for the long weekend. It is almost eery to hear and feel the quietness of the city right now. It was only when things slowed to a crawl did I realize how I had gotten used to the noise and energy wafting in through the windows. It took me 2 1/2 years to get used to the city noise.... I might as well enjoy the quiet this weekend, it will only last a few days. But then... the extreme heat predicted for the week might just slow everyone down.
I've been tracking the weather patterns lately and noticed how the weekends seemed to be raining while the weekdays were nice. That could change but it went on like that for awhile. I felt how Mother Nature is trying to show us something. Seeing things from her perspective, I can just hear her saying... "I am going to make it cold and rainy on the weekends, to prevent my disrespectful children (humans) from going out and polluting my beaches and forests". Of course, she needs to recharge, purify and refresh herself.
I love Ottawa's beaches and hiking trails, but there are too many humans on them... and what was once natural and wild, becomes downtrodden and littered. I often find myself picking up plastic water bottles or cans along my walks. I see these areas looking great in spring but soon are feeling neglected, over-used and tired. There were a few reasons that our Ancestors migrated, one was to allow the land to recharge. There is no consciousness anymore.
With the intense heat and storms being predicted, this Moon of Drama might just be the stage for Mother Nature to demonstrate her power and majesty.
Today is also National Asteroid Day. I've been following the live broadcast* and learning about the potential dangers of the planet being struck by a large meteor or comet. We may feel safe, but the delicate balance of nature is intertwined with so many variables - unknowns and unseen possibilities. Nature is a living organic Being and she will do what she needs to do to restore balance and the universe will collude with her in this as it did when the Dinosaurs went extinct. We are just like fleas on a dog to Mother Earth. One day she may need to shake us all off in order to survive. Humans are not immune to extinction.
Nonetheless, this is not a doomsday report, quite the opposite. It is just my musings about the fragility and preciousness, beauty, power and sacredness of all life everywhere. My own Moon of Drama speaking out in my dramatic fashion.
The Asteroid Day reports talk a lot about what is being done to prevent the Earth from being destroyed by an Asteroid in the distant future if ever. May we all find our place in the grand scheme of Life, whether we are fleas on a dog or Gods and Goddesses in our own right.
Enjoy this Month in dramatic fashion. Live life to the fullest however possible, and remember we walk on the body of our Mother only because she allows us to.
*FOR MORE ON ASTEROID DAY GO TO:
www.earthsky.org (< click here)
At our Workshops with my teachers, we often get new people coming in who know nothing about us, but something in them feels called. My teachers are very generous and welcoming to newcomers. Everyone at the workshop gets what they need and more. But sometimes what we need may not be what we think, or want or even like.
There were many times I was called on my imbalances, illusions and ego related actions. In our traditions, we expect people to hear what we are showing them and look at it, find humility and integrity to go inside and do the work. When someone new comes in, they often see the initiations as criticism. It is natural for the human ego to be defensive. That is our first reaction. The ego is built to defend and survive at all costs.
The key phrase is "at all costs". Even when we know we are wrong, being disrespectful, selfish, small minded, competitive, linear in our thinking, etc... we still feel the impulse to defend our point of view. The trick is to get over yourself. Think circular, collective.
When a Master, Teacher or Wheelkeeper brings consciousness and you came to them to learn, it only makes sense to listen to what they are telling you. Or else why are you there? Is it to show off your wisdom and knowledge? To have some thrills? To experience the phenomena that comes with Shamanism?
Many people will come and many will go, few will stay and do the work. It is not an easy path, I have said that before. A spiritual path is about seeking Wholeness, Enlightenment or Divinity. We need to go beyond what we know, beyond our perceived limitations and beyond our ego issues, needs and desires. It is fine to have needs and ego, but to be balanced and disciplined in them. Ego after all, is the Moons, our Inner children, who too often are running the show. When in our Moons, we can be irrational, emotional, selfish, and linear in our thinking. And immature.
When people come to our circles or workshops with expectations or ego, they don't stay. That is fine with us. We are not looking to convert anyone. But we do ask that you be respectful of the territory you are in, that you come to learn from us, not to teach, preach, judge or condemn.
If it is not for you, that is using discernment. But too often discernment becomes judgement, which can be hurtful and is based on ignorance.
Our people have been persecuted, murdered, judged, condemned, shamed, mistreated in every way possible for the past 500 years. And we are still here, but not in the same way as you may think. Is anyone the same as their Ancestors were 500 years ago? We do not walk around with headdresses or buckskin clothes. We do not all talk the old languages, we do not all have brown skin. But if you take time to look beyond the surface and see the Heart and Spirit of a person, you will see them more clearly.
It takes time to learn new/old ways. Our ways are ancient. They come from decades of tradition. And it is not just about the smudging, drumming, prayers and rituals. It is about the values, ethics, morals, beliefs and practices of Indigenous ways. These ways are not understood by most. Even many of our own people have forgotten the old ways.
All this to say, when you judge someone without taking time to get to know them, without understanding them over time, you lose out on learning and living an entire new reality. You stay in your own perspective and do not see what others are saying or doing. We often like to stay in our comfort zones, we are programmed to be polite, politically correct and superficial.
It gets tiresome don't you think? What is wrong with being direct, honest and even blunt at times if it is to help someone learn, heal and grow?
Knowing what is your path or not your path is using discernment. But when discernment becomes judgement, blame and condemnation, it is laying a burden on others, one they do not deserve. Better to just walk away accepting that you don't get who they are.
Judgements often come from fear of the unknown, competition and jealousy. It can keep us from moving forward and it creates enemies where there are none. We are all guilty of judging others, its just a matter of looking in the mirror at what we see and knowing it is ourseleves looking back.
Walking a sacred path is about being open to what the Universe is showing you about yourself.
I write when I have something to say, about things relevant to my life, as well as to the cycles, seasons and the Sacred Circle of life.
How many of you follow the equinoxes and seasons, the cycles of the Sun as well as the Moon?
June 21st is Summer Solstice and it is a time to celebrate the summer, the longest day of the year. Summer has just begun and especially since we live in Northern climate, we try to make the most of this season. I enjoy the changing seasons, the long summer days and yes, even the long winter nights.
When I lived in Northern Alberta, the summer days and winter nights were even longer. In summer, at 11 pm, it was still light out. It was great as a child to be able to play all day long.
Now the sun wakes me up earlier every day, but that is already changing... after tomorrow the days will start getting shorter again. I never understood how that worked... summer is only beginning and the days are getting shorter???
But nonetheless it is how is it. And I plan to enjoy as much of the good weather as possible. I am even getting used to the high humidity here... sort of....
For now, I welcome the solstice with prayer and ritual. To our Ancestors the changing seasons had much more relevance, life was about survival at all times of year. The summer was the time to hunt, plant, to get outside, to travel and prepare for winter.
These days with the depleting ozone the sun is harsher, so wear a hat, sunscreen and gauge your time under its rays. I find that I burn much faster than I used to in my youth. Those of my generation will notice the difference from 20-30 years ago. In the past I could go outside hatless with no sun screen for hours on end Now it less than half an hour I feel my skin sizzling. But that doesn't stop me from enjoying the good weather.
The Ottawa region is great for summer activities, I plan to explore more of the hiking trails and the Gatineau hills across the river, maybe go of a riverboat ride.
This weekend is a Shamanic Workshop with our community, a time to gather and dream together.
On July 1st most people will be heading for the country. So that weekend there will be no Circle.
HAPPY SOLSTICE and HAPPY SUMMER EVERYONE!!
Talking to some people the other day, it came up that my Matriarchal Ancestors come from the Red River Metis Settlement in Manitoba, that I have Indigenous Ancestry. These are people who vaguely know what I do, yet it was obvious that they did not see me as "Indigenous" as I did not fit their stereotypical notions of what an Indigenous person should look like or even talk or act like.
Being judged was a sore spot for me for a long time. I look white, I dress in modern clothes, I do not "sound Native", whatever that means.
It took me a long time to find myself, my true self... I was not brought up knowing I was Indigenous, it was the elephant in the room scenario. It is amazing what denial and avoidance can accomplish with my Family not wanting to admit to our bloodline. I had to search as an adult for that huge missing part of me. When I finally connected with First Nations People, I felt more at home than in the White World.
Yet in the end, it is not how we look, talk, walk or appear to others... it is what is in our hearts and souls. Our Spirit.
I find it offensive that I should have to carry a card to confirm my Metis Heritage. Do White people have to carry a card to say they are British, French, Irish, Polish, etc.... ???
I think it is time to bring things up to date. Look around you. There are Indigenous People everywhere, but they may not look it and they are not all shouting it from the rooftops. And why not? Partly because of prejudice and stereotypes. Some just want to live normal lives. And in general, we are not loud, boisterous people!
It was safer for us growing up not knowing we were Indigenous, less problems to deal with. It was easier for some of us than others. My Mom and one of my brothers looks more Native than White. I look like my Dad who was Russian. Strange combination huh? Yet, how many of you are from one pure race? We are all mixed breeds.
How many of you watch APTN, the Native Channel?
How many of you take time to learn about the First Nations, Inuit and Metis Peoples of this land?
What is your stereotypical image of an Indigenous person?
I highly recommend some reading materials for those who really truly want to learn about the modern Indian:
"The Inconvenient Indian: A Curious Account of Native People in North America" by Thomas King
"The Imaginary Indian: The Image of the Indian in Canadian Culture" by Daniel Francis
These books give a historical account of how the image of the Native Peoples of Turtle Island was deliberately manipulated and controlled by the invaders, to keep them in their place and to justify the genocide that occurred over the past 500 years.
It is time to accept that we are all part of the Human species and stop the in-fighting, the stereotypes, the judgements and persecutions of each other due to how we talk, look, walk, dress and sound. Let's celebrate our differences and learn from each other. With the huge influx of immigrants to Canada, the colonialists who took over this country are now being overtaken by other cultures. What goes around, comes around.
The teachings I follow may stem from the Indigenous Ancestors of this Land, but the Sacred Circle is common to all life everywhere. All Ancient cultures in the world had Medicine Wheels of some sort.
It is great to honour the Ancestors and Ancestral ways, but in the end is not about culture, it is about Nature and Cosmology, truly....!!!
We all live on the same Earth and under the same sky! We all breath the same air.
People are drawn to Shamanism for various reasons. Mainly people want excitement, phenomena and ritual. But there is much more to it than that. It is a way of life, a daily occurrence for me and many others on the Path.
In Shamanism, we follow Circular and Collective ways. The Circle is about living, learning and sharing our stories, not judging them and being open, honest and out front with what we are living. In a Collective, we all are connected, we all feel each other and we do not keep anything hidden or secret.
In Western society we are often taught (programmed) to show only the best of us, keep up a good front, guard our secrets and all... and I understand that is necessary in a world where we live side by side with strangers and work with people who are competitive or would use your secrets against you.
But in a Sacred Circle or Shamanic community, the main intention is to grow, heal and learn together as ONE, as well as experiencing the Medicine and Teachings.
Oneness is another thing that is often mentioned but not really understood or experienced. As a Hypersensitive, Dreamer and Wheelkeeper, when I do a circle, I feel all those who are in it. It is the unspoken, hidden things that affects my body adversely. I know what those in the circles are feeling and living, I often hold the stories in my body until they are resolved. I will live their stories before and after the Circle. I know New Agers or Healers will say, let it go... but it doesn't work that way in my world. We don't always have a choice and we see it as a learning experience, as hard as it can be sometimes. We are inter-connected and we can help each other if we are open and honest about what we are living.
It isn't easy when people are hiding their true feelings and issues. It is better to bring things out in the open in a circle setting so we can all learn and heal together. We don't keep secrets from each other.
The more we are open about our shortcomings, our fears, shadow and dysfunctional, imbalanced habits, - with ourselves and others - the more we can get other perspectives, other stories and maybe even discover that we are all the same, living the same things. We can find common ground.
Light and dark are part of Nature. We all are both. The idea is to become balanced in both, not to judge the darkness, not to hide from it or hide it from those who can help you learn to master it, find balance, healing and resolution in it.
Too much light is not any better than too much dark.
Our world wants to be in the Light all the time, but if you look at what is going on, shadow is dominating and getting bigger, partly because we don't do the work we need to do with our own shadow issues. We resist, deny, avoid, procrastinate, etc. We may think we did our work, but life will test us. In Shamanism, we work with experience, not mental concepts.
When I came on path, it took me a long time to understand Oneness and to accept my own shadow. I judged it, did not want to acknowledge it, but it came back to bite me in the ass. So I had no choice but to face it head on. Acceptance does not mean to hold onto our issues, it means by accepting, talking about them and following the Way of the Wheel all the way through to resolution and healing our stories. We can change for the better! It does not happen overnight, it happens over time in degrees as we peel away at the layers of fears, programs, broken moons, indoctrinated behaviours, linear thinking... etc.
I am grateful for my Teachers and community who helped me and still help me when I am not conscious of my hidden unresolved shadow issues. We need others to see what we can't or won't look see on our own.
Yesterday we had a doozy of a storm! it was refreshing and cleansing. I went out in it and got purified!
I hear people complain about weather a lot. I do too sometimes, but I try to observe what is happening and why. Mother Earth needs to purify herself of all the toxins built up in the air, earth and water. How is she to do this?
If we keep adding our garbage to her body, and keep polluting our own bodies, how are we to live long, healthy lives? It is hard today to find food that is not contaminated with chemicals, deprived of nutrition. Organic food is expensive and often there is no guarantee that is is as pure as they say it is.
Then there are the pollutants we carry around mentally, emotionally, spiritually...
Have you noticed how movies and TV shows have become darker and more violent? it is hard to find shows that are about the stories, the characters and their lives without the standard car crashes, blowing things up and graphic, bloody scenes. I understand that violence is a part of human nature, but how bad does it have to get before we change as a species? I understand that human history is written in blood and war, but do we have to recreate it in a society that is supposed to be more evolved and more civilized?
How much effect do you think these shows have on our subconscious, on our children, both our living children and our inner children?
There is a time and place for fighting. On the Collective Medicine Wheel the Warrior is on the South of the Wheel. This is where we fight for truth, are accountable for our actions and where we find our Medicine or Power. It is how we deal with life challenges. But not everyone has Warrior in them or has it in the South.
For someone like me who does not have Warrior on my Personal Wheel, but has Sparrow/Peacekeeper Medicine on the South of my Wheel, I tend to find allies to help me when there are challenges. Sparrow is about sisterhood, the Feminine and Sparrows are collective in nature. My Peacekeeper is very loving, but can also stir up conflict, bring the hidden unresolved to the surface to be looked at. I was often called a shit-disturber for doing this. My Warrior exists in the Dreaming and only comes out for very specific reasons.
When we look at conflict, war, challenges, aggression... we look at how to work with these things in a balanced, functional manner. Shamanism is very practical and is about Creation and Destruction, the primal forces of Nature. We also embody these forces need to be understood them and handled with consciousness.
Life is never easy and we all have difficulties, health issues, financial struggles, relationship issues, career challenges, etc,... The challenges are different from what our Ancestors had to deal with, but still life is not all fun and games in this modern world.
How do you handle your life challenges? What is your Medicine in the South of your Wheel?
What hard truths do you need to look at? What illusions do you need to break?
The Warrior Wind is coming to a close on the next New Moon, which is on June 13th.
So there is still time to explore the Warrior, ask questions and find how you work with this Wind.
Questions are welcomed!
What keeps you busy these days? Are you working full time, in a relationship, raising a family, attending many different workshops and self-healing groups? Do you have a busy social life? Do you spend a lot of time on computer or watching TV?
What is important to you, what occupies your time.
Being "semi-retired" I find I am as busy as ever. Yet I forget how much I used to do, when now just the daily mundane tasks seem to take forever. In my young adult years, I was a wife and mother, a volunteer worker with children, in my mid-life I attended Concordia University in Montreal, the went on to study as a Natural Health Consultant and years later I trained as an Art Therapist. I devoted a decade to caring for my aging parents whilst running a private practise as a healer and counsellor, doing Creativity workshops holding ongoing Sacred Circles, Art workshops and more. I was a Tai Chi instruction for 12 years as well. The list goes on....
Looking back, I see that my life has always been busy and full. But my growth and healing took priority. Finding resolution to my stories was paramount.
What is your focus? What drives you? What motivates you to get out of bed in the morning? What moves you through your day? At the end of the day... do you feel like you have lived something profound and meaningful? Do you feel like you learned something, changed something, healed something?
The Medicine Wheel gives us a foundation to live by, a script if you will... to follow while we fill in the spaces with our own uniqueness, personal experiences and perspectives. These days it seems harder to stay on path, to be focused with so many distractions all the time that fill our time with trivial pursuits or mundane matters.
How do you keep yourself aligned on your path and purpose? Do you have a higher purpose in all that you do?
Life is precious and the challenges are constant. How do you navigate through your daily life?
Watching the news lately is a roller coaster ride... with the Royal wedding of Harry and Meghan, and on the other extreme... another mass shooting in the US, in Texas this time.
Then I check my emails. I am subscribed to many animal rights groups that post petitions to save our furry and feathered friends from abuse of all kinds. How did humanity get to be so cruel? Yet, I should not be surprise, humanity has always spilled the blood of others for greed, gain and power.
How does all of this affect me on a daily basis? How can I make a difference? First, I can be selective to what I watch, and sign all the petitions I can, knowing that they do make a difference.
At my age I can't go out and stand with signs in protest against pipe lines tearing up the land and oil spills polluting our Mother, or the issue of murdered and missing Indigenous Women and Children being ignored by the government and police, in spite of all the nice words to do something about it.
How do I stay positive and happy in this world? Do I tune out, numb out? Do I ignore the hard things that I cannot control? Do I fritter my time away with meaningless movies and TV programs? I cannot lie, I have been guilty of all of the above... but every day I try to do something to find sacredness and balance in this world out of balance.
I try to be creative, doing art and working on my small patio garden and recently I joined the garden committee for the building. I also plan to start a Talking Circle for Seniors in our building and see if we can visit those who live alone, to help make their lives a little better.
I find it harder and harder to maintain balance in the world today. Ten or twenty years ago, it was easier. But when the tide of humanity is leaning towards non-belief in anything spiritual and its everyone out for themselves... it's hard. I have mixed feelings about being born at this time. I am grateful to be born early enough to grow up when pollution and overpopulation was not a concern, in a small remote northern town where I could play in wild meadows that are now mowed and pruned.
I feel bad for my son's generation and those to come, it won't be easy for them. The ball is rolling downhill and there is no stopping it now. There is a reason for all of us who are here at this time when everything is shifting.
I am not here to save the world. I am not here to convert anyone to living in accordance with Natural and Cosmological laws. I am here to complete my stories and move on. I am here to learn and practise Traditional ways, Circular ways, Sacred ways. It is not easy to do, but for those whom I meet with the same values and beliefs, I am grateful. Meeting kindred souls keeps me going and it means a lot to me.
How do you practise sacredness and presence in your daily life?
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