2020 is going to be a time of renewal and re-focusing on sacred ways for me. Since the Blue Moon of 2015, I have been immersed in a difficult and dark Ancestral (past life) story. The people we are closest to are often the most challenging of relationships, because we chose to come back and work something through with them. It takes lifetimes often to find healing and resolution to these stories that also occurred over lifetimes.
Remembering sacredness is not easy when the past is so violent. We are all part of the story of human history, which was often cruel and dark. We may feel a residue of anger, frustration, judgments or worse towards those who we once called our enemies. In this life they can be our parents, our spouses, friends or even our own children. It is no wonder that family or close relationships are so diffucult.
Sometimes it is a matter of finding acceptance and love for one another. Other times it can be about letting go and moving on, breaking ties. But even if we cut ties with someone we can still remain unresolved inside ourselves. We can be seething with anger, resentment. disappointment or many other feelings that keep us attached to the story.
True letting go takes time. We have to examine ourselves and how we create our lives and relationships, take responsiblity for our part in the story. We have to look deeply with integrity at the not-so-nice parts of ourselves and choose to be different. We have to grow up.
In Indigenous traditions, maturity is not about age, it is about attitude, an attitude of gratitude and wisdom gained from the stories we lived. What can we learn from the past? What do we want to take forward into the next decade? What do we want to leave behind? How can we change?
I wish you all the best for the year ahead.
May you walk in balance and sacredness upon Mother Earth.